Social anxiety has been a common issue in my life, but it’s also something that a lot of modern society has to deal with as well. I’m going to talk about a date I had not too long ago, and how awkward it was when I realized that we both were suffering from social anxiety. Social anxiety is essentially the feeling of being uncomfortable in public locations, or anywhere that will have you interacting with other people. Since I’m a computer programmer, I was spending a lot of my time in front of a screen – whenever I would talk to someone, it was in the form of a computer chat room (for the most part). I wasn’t too good with talking face to face, and since I only had two other people in my office to talk to (who were also nerds, like me), I didn’t feel that sense of social anxiety. Instead, I felt nothing more than just pure joy; those were two of the best friends that I could ever ask for these days. When it comes to going to bars and parties, I’m the kind of person who tries to avoid all of that. I’m not the most social human being to begin with, but when you slap social anxiety on top of that, it’s going to create something much more than your typical nerd. I get sweaty and shaky at the mere thought of going to the mall, because there’s so many people in there to consider.
I feel like every single place that I go, I’m being watched. I know it probably isn’t true, but I get that feeling as if everyone is simply pointing at me and going “look, another nerd over there”. I wasn’t able to deal with my social anxiety symptoms until I met Sam, who was one of my work friends sister. She was amazing, and didn’t seem to care that I got shaky when we would cuddle up for movies; I just get so nervous all of the time! Needless to say, she was the one person who helped me handle my social anxiety issues, and it’s all due to the first date that we ever had.
We went to a restaurant that served steaks, and it was jam packed when we got there. I wanted to leave immediately, but Sam ensured me that the table was ready and that we wouldn’t be staying too long. I agreed and we went and sat down, and then the arm pits started to go to work. I was sweating up a storm and getting incredibly embarrassed, but Sam just laughed it off. She ordered us some wine and made some small talk, she even told me that she was a huge Star Wars fan (and it was at that moment that I knew I was absolutely in love with this woman). She loves me for who I am, and society needs some more of that these days.